Friday, September 30, 2011

The little girl

She pulled the car into the lot at the edge of the forest preserve and gazed out over the field of wildflowers, illuminated with the vivid glow of goldenrod against a backdrop of tall reeds standing on the marsh.

Her introspective heart was heavy.

She reflected back through the years, recalling episodes from her past which left her feeling rejected, abandoned, lonely, hurt, afraid, and hopeless. She was angry over some of her experiences as she felt robbed in a way...robbed of the life she dreamed of back then. She longed to be that little girl again...the one who was so very happy and carefree; the one who looked toward the future with bright eyes of expectation of a life filled with love. Somewhere between rejection and anger she was lost... The innocence of a child abandoned in the aftermath of rejection.

As the tears welled in her eyes, she suddenly felt a presence like no other.
The voice of God called out to her:

"My precious child, let go of anger; fear and hurt. I will make you new again. You must forgive it all and allow me to deal with those who hurt you. You must let all bitterness go so that you can have peace. You must also forgive yourself...really forgive. When I died for you I took your sins upon myself so that you would not have to die (yes I am your atonement); when I rose from the grave, I defeated death. I am alive and have come to give you life and a fullness of life!
When I ascended, I defeated evil.
You have nothing to fear! You have everything to gain! Life in me and for all eternity is yours if you will only accept it. I will heal you from all of your un-forgotten pain.
You will be free!"  

He knew exactly how she felt and explained to her that every sorrow she has experienced, He has also experienced. This voice...this tenderness...this spirit...penetrated her heart, making it clear that anger need not be hers anymore; that her identity is in the one who looks upon her as the most magnificent He created her to be.

Tears streaming down her face, she envisioned herself as a little girl, standing at the edge of the field, clutching a pink flowered suitcase to her chest. The image of this suitcase signified all the pain she had been holding onto. Year after year she had been stuffing it with one pain after another until it was ready to burst open, exposing its contents of all the emotions hidden inside.

She imagined herself stepping into the field, taking one baby step after another, until she could see her daddy with arms open wide, calling her into his presence. With her suitcase still held tightly to her chest, her pace quickened and she moved closer. She began to run to Him, smiling jubilantly as she leaped into his arms. He took the suitcase from her and He released it into the air as it vanished.

Her suitcase filled with everything but treasure was no longer weighing her down. She felt free again, jumping in the air, dancing, laughing...tears turning to joy...and her heart as light as a feather...the way she remembered it to be back then. The way He made her to be! He held her close in His tender arms of mercy and comforted her, letting her feel His blanket of security wrapped around her soul.

The little girl is her daddy's care!

The sun was beginning to set. She realized she had been there at the edge of the field all afternoon…with God!   It felt like just moments!
As she drove the car out of the lot and headed home, she turned on the radio and was amazed to hear this song playing at that very moment! Smiling ear to ear, she turned up the volume as loud as possible and delighted in every word as she knew it was true!

I can't get enough of that song!
p.s...this story is not about anyone in particular... could be about everyone!


Deborah said...

Lorraine, isn't He just absolutely wonderful?!!~
This is such a beautiful testimony of how near and dear He is and how much He loves you!!
Oh how He loves you and me!!
Thank you so much for sharing this!!!
Bless you my sweet friend xoxooxox

In His love,
Deborah xoxooox

Shannon's Shanonigins said...

Oh my goodness Lorraine, I really needed this post, thank you for being the angel that brought it to me. I really love the song :) I'm so blessed to have you in my life and call you friend. Hugs, Shannon

The Mom Chef said...

That's beautiful Lorraine. Thank you for sharing. I was so drawn to the picture too. I love Queen Anne's lace. Hugs. Christiane

Janette@Janette's Sage said...

Yes it is about us all at one point or another in our life...and I know someone I am sending it to.

Just beautiful. It also just goes with the song I posted awhile back on letting go of the suitcases in order to run.

Thanks for sharing your wonderful talent of writing...I was so blessed this morning!


Denise said...

Hi Lorraine,

What a lovely story about how we can either hold on to anger, resentment and lonliness — or embrace forgiveness and move forward in His loving grace! :) By embracing forgiveness, we embrace peace, hope, gratitude and joy.

Thanks for the blessing of this wonderful story!

Denise said...

Hi Lorraine,

What a lovely post about how we can hold onto anger, resentment, and loneliness - or embrace God's forgiveness and grace and move forward. :) By embracing His love and forgiveness, we also embrace peace, hope, gratitude, and joy! :)

Blessings and hugs!

elaine @ peace for the journey said...

It could be about me...

Thanking God for fields of flowers, arms of love, and the freedom that is mine therein.

Running to Jesus today~


Ocean Dreams said...

How beautiful and I can totally envision this loveliness. It sort of reminds me of the prodigal son - everyone can find the loving arms of their maker once more, even after the hardest of situations.

Amy Sullivan said...

First time here, and being that I am a former Chicago girl, I am totally impressed with your "About Me"!

Can't wait to bounce around a bit more.

A multi-dimensional life said...

I came across some fellow blogger's site that many of you were NOT able to leave comments even with Blogger signed-in. I heard the solution is to use Google Chrome as your browser instead of Internet Explorer or Firefox. Hope that works.

mangiabella said...

hi bella, using my sister's MAC today to try to leave a comment since I've been unsuccessful with the HP.....but I smile when I read this post, I think of all the Lord is doing in our faithful our Father is to meet us in those special moments, how He heals our broken places.....HE IS SO GOOD!!!

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